Always say I love you....

On November 12th of 2009 J.P.(Josh Pishura), Taune Winter, Philip Harris were killed in a Van roll over accident outside Baker City Oregon. I can feel the emotions rise up within me like it was yesterday even though it was a month ago. There has not been a day that has gone by with out me thinking about them and just who they were to me and my family. Sometimes I go into a daze and think of all the moments I got to share with each of them. I guess if we really think about it ......all we truly have is moments in this world and I hope that mine is making a difference.
I miss these guys so much......and the tears still hit my face if I let my mind wander. I know that they are in Heaven with their maker but it just makes me wonder. In my life I have made so many mistakes and I have taken the wrong roads on purpose. I have been in many situations that could of gotten me killed. So many time have I wanted to die...yet God has kept me. These who passed before us on that fateful day.......they were pure, righteous, so good. They did things right yet they go on before me....too young, too precious, too innocent. Does the clay have a right to tell the potter anything? I think not...the potter knows best.....but I guess this is just me pondering.

I have never felt closer to heaven then I do today. I know that this life is but a vapor, a shadow that is here than gone. It is time for me to step into the true reality of life.......knowing that the treasure here are meaningless. The toys, the cars, the houses......meaningless. There is no time to wait....these guys did not know this was their time and we won't either.

Let us get going and stop the foolishness.....the petty things got to go. There is too much for us to do and not enough time. GET OVER IT....GET UP and lets make a difference in this world and increase, enhance and enlarge the kingdom of God. It's the only thing that matters

JP you are a joy, a treasure of a person. You would be so proud of me today because I purchased a Macbook.

Taune.....I miss your love

Phil....I miss your laugh

For the rest of us lets live.......really live

The Big Stage

Today my little girl is going to take the big stage today. She begins by singing the first verse of "Away in a Manger". i remember when I sang my first solo.....it was for a national korean singing contest. I thought I was so cool until I got behind the mic and the cameras. I froze. I remember singing the whole song in uncontrolled vibrato and I was so glad when it was over. But it taught me a lesson in singing and speaking in front of others. I still get nervous but nothing compares to that day. I hope she rocks it out......

My how she has grown up so soon......she always says to me "I am 4 years old and I am getting big...pretty soon you can'y hold me". As I reply the she is always going to be my little girl.

Hmmm

True Forgiveness is it in us without God. We as men all want to get vindicated for any wrong done against us. We feel that we deserved to be treated fair even when we don't treat others in the same way. CS Lewis would call this the natural law.

Thank you God that you see the big picture.......you are seeing 20/20 in every event that takes place. You weigh the heart of man and the decisions that you make are just. Even if they were not to our liking what can we say as man....as the clay to the potter. I can not see the full picture...the work of art that you are creating in me and the world around me. Let us trust the artist, it is his creation anyway. He is Sovereign.

SIN

Understanding the consequence of Sin. The word is CONSEQUENCE means -The effect, result, or outcome of something occurring earlier. Personal example: I love to eat McDonald's Hot and Spicy McChicken sandwiches. They are only one dollar and it is right up the street. I looked up the nutritional guide and saw this sandwich contains: 26 grams of fat 40% of your daily intake. I had 2 of them right before the Wednesday thrive service This means, I ate 80% of my daily fat content in one sitting. The Consequence of this is the: Specimen of a Man you see before you. There is a cause and effect in everything we do in life. Each smile we give those who pass by, a kiss as you leave for work in the morning. When I wash the dishes or compliment my wife, an act of kindness. In our world you might hear the word karma: People say I have bad karma or that causes bad Karma. And I believe in Karma in the way of Sowing and Reaping. Galatians 6:7 says: Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows. So if you are sowing love you will receive love. If you sow negative thoughts, you reap a negative outlook, which turns into a negative future. Sow anger, you receive rage, hate, destruction. If you Sow persistence, you reap the reward of your work. If you sow sin, and disobedience….you will reap DEATH. According to the word of God in Romans 6:23 it is written "For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord". So SIN equals death or the finished product of sin is death In the Greek the word sin is the word Harmartia which means to miss the mark, to wander from the path. In other words disobedience. The bible talks about sin in the New Testament over 174 times. I would say that if someone tells me something 174 time, I would think that would be something that is important and to pay attention to. I pray that we pay attention to the little things in our lives that will lead us in the future to miss the mark. I pray we are like David in Psalms 139:23 where he says: Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.24See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. I pray that this is our prayer, that we can be lead in the way that is eternal…a way of God.

Smile, Lift up your head and trust

You know how we get so upset or irrational about petty things that happen to us day to day. I think of my own life and too many times I have to stop myself and say "Stop taking yourself so serious". People are too easily offended by meaningless actions that take place in our lives. We either grow from each encounter of friction or we play the fool. Pick the one that will enhance your life. You can be right and still come out as the loser. How many times have you felt like it was your right to be right because you knew that you were right but at the end you would of rather been wrong or just said nothing. That is why we must be quick to listen and slow to speak and get angry.

Stop playing the fool.......Pride comes right before you fall on your face

I think I understand why Jesus said turn the other cheek in Matthew 5:39. He was trying to warn us about our pride and our service at the same time. So I ask you to stop taking your self so seriously and put others before you as a rule of thumb and you will always come out on top

Where is your Heart?

What a great morning. I got to wake up bright and early (3 am) so that I could take my family to Denver International Airport which seems like it really is in the middle of Wyoming (thank you for the input Derek). Man now I am free like a bird, I was blind but now I see...no kids and no dictator around the house to tell me what to do, where to place my dishes. But all of those thoughts ended when I woke up this morning to a quiet house. The love of my life was gone, the voices of my children missing and I felt lost. I started to missing them right from the moment I woke up. When my wife called around 7:30am I ran to get the phone just to hear them because they are my treasures in life. In the book of Matthew Chapter 6 verse 21 it says “For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.” What I statement for me today. Because when I woke up I felt like a piece of my heart was missing. Many people in our world place their worth and their hearts in things that will eventually damage them. Young girls so willing to give themselves away do to the lack of love she finds for herself. Maybe it was a lack of a father or a lack of self worth and value. Fathers trying to earn their strips by climbing the corporate ladder...passing up their families for their business. Then he finds at the end that all that he worked amounts to nothing when he has no one to enjoy it with. So where is your treasure today? There you will find your heart, your goals, your worth, and your value.

I is Stupid

Whoever loves discipline loves knowledge, but he who hates correction is stupid. I mean this is the truth about my life. I mean who likes discipline?I think no one, especially in this world that we live today where you can see the lack of discipline by looking in peoples messy cars, trashed out homes. Try watching the children in the mall screaming and hitting their parents and teenagers, might I say more. I am not saying that I personally am safe from my own criticism but our culture teaches self esteem but not self discipline.
According to the verse in Proverbs 12:1 if you look at your life and are open for comments and changes, I believe there will be much growth and deep know how will come. But if you think you got it together and your have been gifted with wisdom...go for it. I'll see you at the bottom. Really guys, don't take your self so seriously. People are too easily offended.....get over yourself. If you don't want to be corrected then fine.....but it is better to learn this lesson up front and save yourself from much pain. Making stupid mistakes is okay but don't stay stupid.

Welcome to My World

Today is a great day. I started out in prayer and Bible reading. I read the rest of the book of first John and also a couple of chapters in the book of proverbs. In the book of first John there is a strong statement......It says" if anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen cannot love God, whom he has not seen". When it is talking about brother it is talking about mankind as a whole. If we do not love makind, and care for the needs of man, how can we love God who is unseen, many times unknown. If we are not in love or have ablity to give compassion to our brothers how can we understand God's love and compassion for us except in a selfish way. The way to know God more and His love more is to do what He did and give our love more.

Then I got on Twitter to make sure I am up to date on things going on around me. Checked my email and rented a car from Thrifty and wrote a blog. This was all done between 6:30 to 8:13am

Please use your inside scream

What lies beneath? There are many masks that we wear especially in the CHURCH world. To those who grew up in church they know what I mean. We are pressured to act, dress, speak, and clap a certain way. But this is not just the church but the society as a whole. We are thought in the theater school of life to put on a show. In the world that we live, we are trained to showcase a false sense on security, happiness and self. We almost lose ourselves in playing this game for so long. We long for a meaningful relationship were we can be ourselves and have our guard down, but the truth is most people do not have it and that is why they feel so alone. We can be in a crowded room yet feel like we are the only one there. I don't know if you ever felt this way......maybe it is just me. See, what ever happen to the authentic, to be the person that you know on the inside. I mean the raw humanity, who struggle in thier lives, The people who don't have it together, the ones who question tradition and what people consider sacred. See I am speaking in generalities because each of us are different and come from different back grounds. But all of us know what it feels to be alone. According to Gallup Polls, Americans are among the most loneliest people in the world. Wow we have electricity and fresh clean water, crowed cites and busy schedules yet in the chaos of it all, we feel like SCREAMING just to feel alive. Mother Teresa once said "Loneliness and the feeling of being unwanted is the most terrible poverty". She has seen the horrific lives of the lepers of Bombay yet she feels that there is even a greater tragedy that is taking place all around the world. I hope that we who have hope give hope, and we how have love give love. Only we can cure this plague that is rampant in our world today. Stand up and scream back through the life that you live.

Forgiveness by the Godfather

What a great day......I got to sit back and just enjoy a movie with just me and Micah. We watched the Godfather 2. I guess it is not the most kid friendly movie but I don't think Micah minded much since he was kicking back chewing on the DVD case. Well there was a great scene in the film where Michael who is the Family Boss finds out that His brother Fredo has turned on him. He is in Havana Cuba where he takes his older brother by the face and kisses him on the lips and tells him "I know it was you, you broke my heart". This moment was a scene of forgiveness because he loved Fredo and he was family. Of coarse this is after he has killed Mr. Roth and Frankie an old friend and, yes he does kill his brother at the end of the movie. (I personally think it was due to the crazy fishing hat and Italian suit combo that Fredo wore for the last 15 minutes of the film.
Well Michael taught me 2 things: 1) don't ever mess with Michael Vito Corleone. 2) The importance of forgiveness in families. I remember when I was picking my best man in my wedding and I asked Pastor Bo what should I do.....He said to me friends will come and go but family is forever. I took his advice and was thankful that I did. I know that we can not truly understand forgiveness until we learn to forgive. This is when we understand at least a bit of the tremendous act of love that was given to us by the life of Christ. It was forgiveness to the hundredth degree. He came as a human child and grew up in the run down village, he went through all that we go through from poverty to being falsely accused unto death. But at the end he made it clear that He does not condemn us. Wow what a great act of forgiveness that we will never fully understand

Hate it or Love it.........Solomon

The book of Proverbs: I read through the book of Proverbs to learn wisdom from the wises man that has ever lived even though according to the word of God I feel that he was a complete moron. I guess the truth is we all have our ups and downs especially if it is about the ladies. I will say this and I will say it again.......love is blind and sometimes deadly. It can take you to the deepest and richest places on earth but also for many it take us to the pits of hades. Solomon was the wisest man but he was addicted to sex and wanting a lot of it from a lot of different women. But I guess during that time it was good to be the king though it was the very reason that his kingdom fell apart and also the reason his kids were a mess. I don't think they got to spend a lot of one on one time with Dad and his hundreds of kids and wives.
So back to the first question why am I trying to learn wisdom from Proverbs a book of Solomon a butt head? I guess he had his good moments like the rest of us and Proverbs was his masterpiece. You got to role with the punches.

Jesus is a X-Men

Today I was reading through the Book of Matthew and I got stuck on chapter 21 verse 18 to 22. This is a strange story and I never really think I got the meaning of it til today. So early in the morning Jesus was walking to the city and he was hungry. He saw a fig tree.....so He went up to it so that He could get some grub. Man He was looking forward to eating some figs this great morning. But when he went up to this fig tree there was not fruit just leaves. So guess what he does.......? He curses the tree and then it dies on the spot. Its dead and withered....like weeds in my back yard on a cold winters day. So now the disciples are astonished at what just happened. I mean this guy has the power to speak over something and POW. So they ask Him, what is your secret? How in the world do you do that? Jesus crouches down, brings them in close and with a still quiet voice says, "faith." If I was there, I would say, "Come again". What do you mean faith...I understand faith, but what in the world is that? He would respond by saying"true faith". If you have faith and not doubt you can do anything. You can possess the power to change your situation, the atmosphere, and anything in your environment. You have a say so in all that goes on in your life. You have the authority of God Himself yet don't know it.See Jesus did not believe in limits. He did not believe in any boundaries. To Him there are no such things. If he want to fly like a bird, or swim like a dolphin, He could do it. If he wanted to transform into a angelic being, He could do it. If he wanted to raise from the dead he could do it. He was not limited by gravity or the laws of physics or mathematics. Two fish plus five loaves of bread equals five thousand. He could ride dinosaurs, dance on a Jupiter and make fire come from his hands if he wanted to. See He is a super hero, like Superman, or a class 5 X-Men, and Peter from Heroes, all put together. Of coarse He would have no weaknesses. See this characters do not have to think and hope in the supernatural. It's just what is normal to them because they are supernatural. All things are possible, and nothings impossible. Jesus had no limits, no boundaries and this is the just how he was. And what he was wanting to show us is that we in Him are supernatural was that we too have no limits or boundaries if we only would believe and realize the authority within us. Today God desires for His people to live it that same mindset and realm that He lives in. A realm of infinite possibilities. Now this is the Kingdom of God now.