Always say I love you....

On November 12th of 2009 J.P.(Josh Pishura), Taune Winter, Philip Harris were killed in a Van roll over accident outside Baker City Oregon. I can feel the emotions rise up within me like it was yesterday even though it was a month ago. There has not been a day that has gone by with out me thinking about them and just who they were to me and my family. Sometimes I go into a daze and think of all the moments I got to share with each of them. I guess if we really think about it ......all we truly have is moments in this world and I hope that mine is making a difference.
I miss these guys so much......and the tears still hit my face if I let my mind wander. I know that they are in Heaven with their maker but it just makes me wonder. In my life I have made so many mistakes and I have taken the wrong roads on purpose. I have been in many situations that could of gotten me killed. So many time have I wanted to die...yet God has kept me. These who passed before us on that fateful day.......they were pure, righteous, so good. They did things right yet they go on before me....too young, too precious, too innocent. Does the clay have a right to tell the potter anything? I think not...the potter knows best.....but I guess this is just me pondering.

I have never felt closer to heaven then I do today. I know that this life is but a vapor, a shadow that is here than gone. It is time for me to step into the true reality of life.......knowing that the treasure here are meaningless. The toys, the cars, the houses......meaningless. There is no time to wait....these guys did not know this was their time and we won't either.

Let us get going and stop the foolishness.....the petty things got to go. There is too much for us to do and not enough time. GET OVER IT....GET UP and lets make a difference in this world and increase, enhance and enlarge the kingdom of God. It's the only thing that matters

JP you are a joy, a treasure of a person. You would be so proud of me today because I purchased a Macbook.

Taune.....I miss your love

Phil....I miss your laugh

For the rest of us lets live.......really live

The Big Stage

Today my little girl is going to take the big stage today. She begins by singing the first verse of "Away in a Manger". i remember when I sang my first solo.....it was for a national korean singing contest. I thought I was so cool until I got behind the mic and the cameras. I froze. I remember singing the whole song in uncontrolled vibrato and I was so glad when it was over. But it taught me a lesson in singing and speaking in front of others. I still get nervous but nothing compares to that day. I hope she rocks it out......

My how she has grown up so soon......she always says to me "I am 4 years old and I am getting big...pretty soon you can'y hold me". As I reply the she is always going to be my little girl.

Hmmm

True Forgiveness is it in us without God. We as men all want to get vindicated for any wrong done against us. We feel that we deserved to be treated fair even when we don't treat others in the same way. CS Lewis would call this the natural law.

Thank you God that you see the big picture.......you are seeing 20/20 in every event that takes place. You weigh the heart of man and the decisions that you make are just. Even if they were not to our liking what can we say as man....as the clay to the potter. I can not see the full picture...the work of art that you are creating in me and the world around me. Let us trust the artist, it is his creation anyway. He is Sovereign.